-:|:.CSD.Day.7:|:-

So it's hella late and I JUST had dinner, smh.

Today was longggg as hell.!! I had to have some coffee.. Yes - I know. Not on the diet AND bad for you... But it was needed.!

So due to the day being long, didn't eat and didn't have any soup... I wasn't really hungry today though but maybe that was both the coffee and my mind being elsewhere... But I was satisfied with love, lol.!!

Ever have that love that makes you wanna sing, say corny things, and spread the love.? That love that helps you to accept other things, albeit the present or past.? Feels right.. Feels nice.. Feels good..

Completely offff the subject, lol.. I'll touch on that in another post...

Anyway... With no soup, no food to energize me, and coffee.. I lost less than a pound... Darn.!

I must do this diet again the right way.!! No distractions, stress, or cheats.!! But I'm going to finish this one out with the two days I added still... Less weight to lose on the next one.!!

Oh yeah, still not wanting sugar.!! Not really starch either... I do want fruit though.!! Going to have to get some.. But why is it so damn expensive.!!! And my HB got me wanting clementines too, smh... I wish a bag or two "fell off a truck" or I was famous and my fans sent me some, lol... Oh what dreams...

Speaking of dreams... I'm going to go watch Sabrina The Teenage Witch until I fall into a dream...

Until next time,
-deuces-

Weight: 147
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-:|:.CSD.Day.5&6.:|:-

Writing this uber early... Meds knocked me out so I didn't do it earlier, lol.

So back on it and I'm feeling muchhh better. In high energy.!!

Dropped two pounds - and yes I'm a little disappointed because I know I should've been further along but like I said, I'm adding two days so I should be good...

So today was meat and veggies... Wasn't craving meat but I got my veggies in... Cooked veggies.. And ate a few bites of meat.. Another thing I'm not craving is sweets.! I can look at them and not say "I wanna eat you", lol.

I am however wishing I ate that whole potato when it was potato day, lol. Me and starch share a personal relationship.!! I am, however, going to eat starch moderately when I'm off this... Gotta stay away from the Italian.!!

I did get to each brown rice though.!! So I'm not angry about it, lol. Added some veggies and made it sort of like Chinese rice, Hans the fat in it.

This does not feel like a diet to me.! Lol.. I love that though.

Ok, I'm going back to sleep damn it.!!

Until next time,
-deuces-

Weight: 147.6
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-:|:.CSD.Day.3&4.:|:-

I'm behind on posting.!!

I know... Difficult weekend.. Stress is a mood killer to the fullest.!!

All in all. This slumper hasn't helped physically either.. Still on the diet but I didn't lose any weight yesterday and the day before. =/

I don't know if stress had anything to do with that for sure but I honestly think so.. So as of today, I'm going to knock myself out of this funk and get back into my mode. I've also decided to add two more days. =)

Soooo. I'll be back later to keep tabs up.

-deuces-
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-:|.CSD.Day.2.|:-

Day two of the diet...

Today is pretty much the same as yesterday except I'm not that hungry... I eat about half a bowl and feel full...

Today is also the day I got to eat a baked potato.. Which I actually boiled and mashed.. I ate a little less than half of that before getting full. I'm liking this.!!

Now I thought by this time today, I'd be tired of the soup and want more of a variety but.... Nope.! I'm content with it.. However, I did add more cayenne pepper and hot sauce to the bowls I ate today...

Still the frequent bathroom visits but not as many as yesterday and no nauseated feeling either.. So thumbs up to that..

Another thing... Not sure if it's the diet but I actually went to sleep a bit earlier and had less wake ups in the middle of the night.. I do have a son that wakes me up but I've never slept a whole night through before I had him... Big difference in my energy level... I played tennis and kick ball without breaking a major sweat.!!

Until next time.! - Which is tomorrow.!! Lol.

-dueces-

Todays weight: 149
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-:|.Cabbage.Soup.Diet.|:-

So,
Cabbage Soup Diet...

A friend, whom I met through twitter, came to me about this diet where you can lose up to 15 pounds within seven days... You eat cabbage soup for that week and nothing else and the pounds are supposed to melt off. Really.? I think I'll try it.!!

I started mine today and she's supposed to start today or tomorrow. I bought the ingredients last night from Raley's (total price was under $20) and cooked it so it'd be already done for me to eat today... So far I've had three bowls.

So far I've noticed that this diet helps you lose a lot of water weight because I've been putting frequent flier miles in at "Bathroom Airlines". I'm not going to go into the details of how many times I've peed today, lol, but it's been a lot. So I don't recommend it if you have a weak bladder. I've been craving sugar and random snacks because they're all around my house (even in my room) but I'm not going to give in.! I mustn't.!! Lol. I did experience a little light-headedness earlier but that may have been due to my strenuous activities - I don't know yet and right now, my stomach feels a bit funny but that may be my body getting used to the soup or digesting it.. Blah.. I can roll with it. No problems.!

I'll keep posting on my progress, experiences and the conclusion of the diet...

If you want to try it, here is the link below... If you do, hit me with a comment and let me know your progress and experience as well.. Good luck.!

http://www.cabbage-soup-diet.com/

Starting weight: 152.6
Weight as of this post: 151.6

<3

143...HB. You know you got me and I got you.
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To You

"You gotta understand I'm a woman with needs that needs fulfilling
And if you ain't with it somebody else is willing
You gotta love me, or leave me alone" - Brand Nubian

*sigh*
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Lesson:

Never go to a bar with someone who's already wild WITHOUT liquor... The ending results may be a jail cell. Smh.
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Meaning.?

I had a dream last night with the craziest of events. Almost like a nightmare but I didn't jump up out my sleep panting, scared, and crying (yes, my nightmares are THAT bad).

It started off just fine. My son and I were on a Florida vacation with my family. Arrived to our time share suites and planned to explore then meet up later at the pool. I'd forgotten to pack my suit so on the way back I picked one up.

When I arrived back, I was going up some steps and thought I saw BD inside a store so waited for a moment for him to come out. I gave him our son and told him to spend some time with him and meet me and the rest of the fam in an allotted time.

As I was going to turn away, someone bumped into me and when I looked up, I was somewhere else. I was sitting on top of some apartment building steps and over hearing some girls around my age talking about a rapist group in the area that had attacked their friend. I tried to not listen so I wouldn't begin to remember my own experiences in the subject and when I turned my head, some guy was sitting next to me.

He looked to be about 19 or 20 and seemed worried or nervous about something. Not to mention the fact that he made me feel very uneasy... I stood up and was about to go down the steps and he grabbed my arm, still sitting down, and when I looked back to see what was going on, there were a group of men rushing towards me.

I snatched away from the guy and ran like hell as I was chased by this group of men, knowing just who they were and what they wanted, wanting to get as far away as possible and find my son and BD but they'd caught a hold. of me and had me pent to the ground as I kicked and screamed. Just as I expected the worse to occur, I was being snatched up by feminine hands and carried away - eyes closed the whole time.

I finally opened them once I heard a door close and bolt followed by warmth. I was in a room being looked at by about seven women who looked to be my age or younger. I found out these were women who were attacked by "the group" and saved just like myself. Apparently "the group" didn't like for business to go unfinished so these women were to stay here until they were caught and put away.

I wasn't having that. I had a son out there who needed his mother. That was all I could think of. I told the creators of this hideaway that I needed out but before I got a response, there was a big blast followed by a huge rolling ball of fire.

My eyesight suddenly activated into slow motion as I witnessed women being burned alive and blown into pieces, yet I was untouched. I suddenly snapped back into reality and hid myself under singed wood and glass created by the blast and fires, hoping to not be discovered alive. I held as still and kept as quiet as possible as a crew of men dressed in all black with masks and what looked to be homemade weapons ran through the home - and to my shock and relief, ran out into the streets I heard more blasts coming from.

I waited and waited until the sounds were at almost a nonexistent distance and all that could be heard were buildings falling apart and screams of excruciating pain. I had to find my son. I didn't know where to look but I let my feet lead me as I ran as fast as I could through this place.

I was running near some bushes when I was suddenly snatched and my heart dropped as I prepared for the worst. To my luck, that didn't happen. I was dragged through the bushes until we were stopped by a brick wall and told to stay there because some of men stayed behind to make sure everyone was dead. As I got a good look at him, I realized he was one of these men and was confused as to why he was helping me. Before he got a chance to say anything else, we heard rumbling through the bushes. He pushed me back against the brick wall and stood in front of me.

My heart dropped once again and it seemed that my hearing followed as I saw the lips of these guys move but heard nothing. After angry words were exchanged, the men pulled out shot guns and began firing them. Once again my eyesight was activated into slow motion as I saw the bullets making their way towards us. The guy in front of me shouted in pain as I felt the impact of the bullets hit his body and suddenly felt the hot lead inter my shoulder before going unconscious.

When I came to, it was almost daylight and then men were gone. Even the guy who saved me. So I got up and ran for my life with the same determination to find my son. As I ran, my surroundings began to look familiar again. I was now back at the suites which happened to be unscathed. I went to our room but no one was inside. I didn't know where the others rooms were so I scaled up and down the time share complex looking for my son and BD in panic mood and just when I was about to cry, I saw the two of them step out of a room then look over at me...

The dream ended with me walking towards them.
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Coincidence.?

This was today's horoscope....

One of the rare time this shit might be true.

The more unique you are, the more difficult it is to find a love relationship. In fact, it can be a bit like finding a needle in a haystack. If you're a complex person, and most Moonchildren are, settling for the wrong person will be even worse for you than for most. That's because you're so tuned in on an intuitive level that every mismatched element will be extremely obvious to you, and always a thorn in your side. If you hold out for the right thing, it will be much more rewarding and far more likely to succeed. You're not someone who can compromise in this area.

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This explains so many things I've been questioning about a certain someone that has came into my path since the new year... I thought it was just me being cautious and pushing him away but it seems it's just fate to not fall. So now that he's fallen hard and I haven't... What do I do.?

It's not that I don't like him. I just can't see a future. I can only see day by day with this person. Not to mention those sparks, fireworks and chills aren't there.

I think my heart is caught in another time of my life -- with someone else. =(

And how funny that moment I get ready to click "send" Usher and Alicia Keys' "My Boo" comes on... The hell is going on.!?
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I Need A Vacation...

From the world.!

I've been so damn out of it lately. I'm losing sleep, memory, and patience.! I've been going to sleep between 4:30 - 5am knowing I have to get up @ 9:30AM. I can't help it. :(

Not to mention the fact that everyone seems to need me for something lately. I just want to throw my BlackBerry out the window sometimes because it goes off non-stop. Be it business, family, friends, or my dude, I get calls, texts, and emails from 5AM to 4AM -- Yes AM.! Jesus, Mary and Joseph.!

My son has been getting real sick too. :( So I sit up and watch him sleep to make sure he's ok. Hell, taking care of a child is a job all itself.!! Then I work on top of that.!!!

Vacation please.?
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Ok. So I know I've been gone a minute but I don't always have to sit at the pc. However, I've just registered blogspot on my phone. So heads up.!

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Ask me what you want. It's Anonymous.! http://formspring.me/ToyaBanks

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if u were a genie n a bottle what would be the riight way 2 rub you??so they cud make a wish?lol

Lmao. They gotta rub on that g spot multiple timess to get a wish.

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If you could be a star athlete in any sport, which sport would you pick?

Tennis.

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Would you rather be really hot or really cold?

I don't do really hot or really cold well. Both well end with me in the hospital.

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Are you afraid of dying?

Nope.. Too many near death experiences.

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What was the weirdest gift you ever received?

Um, hmmm. This stalker chic sent me a naked pic "looking" weird as a gift. dos that count.?

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How do u have a kid if you are preferential to females?

I prefer males over females actually. Always have always will.

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if you could ask any1 a question DEAD OR ALIVE..WHO WOULD IT BE and why??

My ex hubby.. Because I am still confused.

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-:|:_I.Don't.Get.It_:|:-

Why dos i sem like the unappreciative people have the most to need to be thankful for but refuse to see it.? Nothing is never enough for them. They always have to have more.

I'd be happy with the little gifts in life like a good job, good income, a car that gets me from A to B with no hassles, a place that feels like home, friends and family, and most of all love.

People have that and take it for granted... "I got a god job but I hate working." .. "I make good money but I don't want to work hard for it" .. "I have someone that loves me but I don't care. I can get better."

Shut the fuck and enjoy your life.!!

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r u single?

*checks ring finger* I guess so.!

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applez or nananaz

Lol, Bananas

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Ever left the country?

Nope. :o( I want to.!

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what was for dinner?

Chicken fried fish, dirty rice, mashed potatoes anddd peaches for dessert.

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-:|:_2010_:|:-

Well, well, well... The new year, 2010 is here and I cannot be happier. Last year was such a struggle to get through and I hope it was only preparing me for the riches to come in the one.

I have goals set and I hope to fulfill each one.

1. Get my license

2. Buy a car

3. Pick a new state to move in

4. Pack my things and drive there

5. Get a new home, job, daycare

6. Find love again

7. Be happy.!

Hello, 2010... I welcome you.